Day One - Blog One

Well, I have been contemplating this new blogging opportunity for a while. For some time, I have just been blogging over on MySpace.com and then doing the "video" blog from time to time on different video sharing sites. Now, I want to broaden my spectrum a bit. I think I feel pretty good about this because it is safe and I feel somewhat guarded from those I may not particularly want to have reading my blogs. If it does happen that they come upon this site and find me, so be it. I think one of my main goals is to write...period. I have been writing since early childhood. I have been 4 times published and I hope to publish two books I am currently procrastinating on. I have had some of my poetry published. I remember the day I got the acceptance letter. I was so overwhelmed and elated. It was a beautiful day. I went outside, sat down on the curb, in front of my house, and just cried. I felt such a feeling of inner accomplishment and I was stunned that I really did it. Because of my feelings of unworthiness, this brought a new sense of worth to my spirit. I felt like, yeah, I really am worthy of this acknowledgement and I deserve to be proud of it. I felt as if I had a voice and it was the beginning of feeling like it was truly ok to use it. That was seventeen years ago. I am now 36 years old and still trying to convince myself of the "fact" I am worthy to share my views, my voice, my heart, my love and my art. I am much more comfortable in my skin than I used to be. I am much more comfortable in my circumstances than I used to be. I can see my body and my physical issues and know that this isn't the end for me. This is only the beginning. I know, beyond a shadow of a doubt, I have a purpose. I have a reason to keep going and growing forward. I know what my calling is. I can open my life-book and see that the chapters being written are exciting and full of life, love, purpose and passion. I know that today is a blessing and I have many opportunities ahead of me. For that, I am truly grateful. I am thankful every day for those that have walked in, ran, spun into, crashed in and even exploded into my life. I am thankful for this day and for everyone I get to be so privileged to share pieces of their lives with. It makes my life worth it. Those amazing gifts of friendship are my life-support system. What a truly wonderful blessing! Thanks for listening...

*tori*